Monday, May 29, 2006

THANK YOU, My dear friends!!!!

Hey hey.... I should be feeling better each day... just that I m hiding myself in my room to avoid meeting my nasty sis-in-law at the hallway.... She's so sensitive that she can pick on me on my usual actions. I m so stressed minding every action that I do in front of her. Well, i m just taking precautions to avoid any more conflicts... Just another 4 more mths, in Oct, I can move out with Alvin. :) (1 mth before our wedding) Anyway, i m used to it...
I've received some encouraging words from friends..... thank you..... even friends that I haven't met for ages, left me a msg here in my blog, that's Gen... THANKS GEN for your concern!!! And Yihui, she sent me a smile and some nice words through my friendster!! THANKS YIHUI!!! I m so glad that u all care!!! (Sound as if i m seeking attention!!! hee hee!!) No lar.... hmmm.... Gen and Yihui are my secondary school friends, we haven't met for a long time since we graduated from St Theresa's Convent.... I m so glad and touched to hear from them!!! Of coz, not to disappoint my family, Alvin and my friends who care.... I will definately feel better each day and braver to face my sis-in-law!!! :)
THANK YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!! LOVE U ALL!!!!

BAD DAY....

Remember to turn off the music of this blog before playing this video... Enjoy!

Sigh!! This song describe my mood now.... Of coz not that bad lar... :) Enjoy!

And here's the lyrics:

BAD DAY (Daniel Powter)

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out
Wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well oh that
Strong
Well I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You see what you like
And how does it feel, one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

My brother's wife is problematic!!

Sometimes, i feel that my sis-in-law's ex-boyfriends are the luckiest MEN.... and my poor brother is the unlucky guy to marry CELINE (sis-in-law). She seriously has got very very bad temper.... even myself, being very patience with her can't tolerate her. Especially, when she target at me and my actions when there's quarrel with brother. Whenever there's arguements with my brother, she will ddefinately, not only leave the house and go back to her grandma's place (she don't stay with her mum), she will also try to pin point everyone - mum, dad and myself. She admitted that she has very very bad temper and she has split personality (I think she watch too much of dramas). She is so scary!!! My family has been always trying to accommodate her.... and she's still picking on everyone of us to she shows her anger! Who are we to deserve all these rubbish from her???
Last sunday morning, dad's not in, i was woken up by the arguements between celine, brother and mum. I was eavesdropping their arguements.... I told myself, if i m being mentioned, I will open my door and go to her and confront her. And indeed, for the 2nd time, she scolded me BITCH and wants me to move out of the house. I was really angry and open the door, walk to her and confronted her! Guess what she told me.... Alvin and I were not invited to Hazel's (my 6 mths niece) 1st month party last december (2005). I was shock to hear that and mum scolded her!
Next she complained that I disturbed her from her sleep every weekend night, becoz I went back very late and when I bath, the noise of the water disturbed her. I "shoot" her back: so she can't sleep when it's raining?? haa haaa.... she almost can't ans me... haa haa.... instead she replied, it don't rain everyday and they close the windows! Hmmm.... Come one.... even when we close the window, we can still hear the droplets lor!!! Goash!!!
I know that this was her concern, for the past many months, I shower with the lowest level of water and this minimised the noise heaps!!! So i asked her, for the past many months, was she disturbed by the water noise... and she said No, becoz their door was closed. But nope, they didn't close their bedroom door. So this proves that I did try my very best to compromise her and succeed... but she still picks on me! I m really speechless... things already improved and she still picks on me.... she's really bad!
Secondly, she wants me to move out.... FINE... i compromised (Actually, not really compromising her) Alvin and I are planning to get married end of the yr and gonna rent a place to stay together before we get our House in 2009. So what else she wants..... and she still picks on me!!!! And she told me that she hates me and since there's no string attached between us, she decided not to attend my wedding.... despite all these, alvin and i are inviting her.
Thirdly, she picks on my little usual actions!!! the day before, before I went out, I took out my shoes from my room and drop it on the floor to wear it and walk out of the house..... She was there. She feels that I purposely drop my shoes on the floor and walk out with my back facing her, to her, these actions shows my anger. I was like HUH?????? I can't believe she can be pick on me for such usual actions!!! I simply can't believe it.... She is just too sensitive! Another incident was, one day last year, I was trying to be nice, i bought a BABY RECORD BOOK for my bro and her.... since i saw my bro, I passed it to him. On sunday, she brought this out and said that why not pass it to her?? I was like HUH?????? isn't the same, my brother's the father of hazel, why can't i pass it to my brother???? Sometimes, it so difficult to live with such person.... Doing the right things also got pick by her!!! Since she's so sesitive to my little actions, I became more pressurised and i feel that i was being watched!
Next, she was complaining that I m not communicating with her.... and i explained, becoz knowing her with very bad temper.... I decided to stay away from her, i may appear to be unfriendly, but i m just trying to avoid conflicts with her!! Goash!!! Whichever way it is, to communicate with her or not, there's bound to have conflicts with her, she will still picks on me when she's not happy! So how to live with her!??
I was so afraid of her.... that I don't dare to play with her baby in her presence. I m just avoiding conflicts with her.... I bet when there's any arguements she might want me to hands off her baby.... and when these words comes out from her.... situation will be very bad.... I m just preventing. Come on, she can wants me out of the house, she will dare to say hands off her baby if she knows i was playing with her baby... becoz she said she hated me.
these few days, I was really upset about it.... I wish she's not exist in my life.... Goash! Never in my life met such unreasonable woman. I have no mood to do anything when i was at home... and I feel so much happier and free when i was outside... whether working or not.
I would like to thank all my friends and Alvin for being there to support me when i m down!! THANKS GUYS!!! last 2 days, Monday and Tuesday, I was so afraid to go home.... dragging myself home, praying and hoping that i don't meet her when i open the door. I even stood outside my house for half hour, don't know what to do.... thanks to all the encouraging sms from friends.... I was reading those sms and it gives more more confident to open the door. THANK YOU.... Yunxian, Dawn, Reema, Yenling and Alvin for being there to listen to my complains abt HER!
Steph, thanks for recommending the rented room.... I can't move out now.... if i move out now, means, I m completely giving in to her. Mum will not allow that.
David, thanks for twisting the whole incident to a funny joke!! although it's a short chat over msn... it means alot to me! Thank u!!!
SOB SOB!! I wish she's not exist! I was scare to face her... but after all the support from my friends.... I m better and i will try to be stronger!

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Long weekend... + my sis-in-law

It's gonna be the last long weekend till Dec.... for the benefit of those outa singapore.... Friday's a Public Holiday, Vesak Day.

So so... on friday, Alvin and I were finding something different to do.... we went to the Science Centre!!!!! Goash... it has been a LONG time since i step into the Science Centre.... maybe since our Secondary School days.... Thanks to Dawn's reccommendation, being a teacher, she gotta bring her kids to the Science Centre and the last time she met up with us, she was telling us about this place.... PLUS, i met up with Yunxian on Wednesday, we went to Woodlands Library... and in the library, there's some displays from the Science Centre, we stood there for a couple of mintues to play around with the displays and I found it interesting.... SO i suggested to spend our Friday afternoon there in the Science Centre.

In the evening, we hang around Marina Square and we caught Poseidon. (Click on the pix for it's official website).
It was an EXCELLENT movie!!! 2 thumbs up, plus my toes!!!! It was indeed very exciting!! good climate, i can say.... U should watch it!!!! I was grabing Alvin's arm so hard throughout the whole movie, because I was so anxious about what happen next!!!
On Saturday, I got an assignment from my cousin and I went for photo shoot... it was fun! But too bad, i can only be there for the 2nd half of the day. Met up again with David whom I shot with him when i was doing the SDU assignment. :) Gee... i m addicted to photo shooting.... it was fun!!!! But too bad, I had a slight outbreak on my face.... recovering with some scars....poor makeup artist gotta put lotsa concealer on my face and poor photo editor, gotta spend some time edit on my face... hee hee.... OPPS!!! I was too stress with work lately..... got some outbreak!!! Sigh...
In the evening, we went to watch Lie with Me.... geee.... the worst movie that i ever watched!!! Too many sex scenes..... BORING!!!!! I strongly DISCOURAGE anyone to watch that movie!!! Even u are bored at home and nothing to do.... i reckon u sleep at home than going for that movie! it was so bad that many people left half way through.... Maybe there's too many sex scenes that it's pretty embarrassing to watch with so many people in the theater...
And as usual, on Sunday's my hibernation day.... :) Slept the whole day!!!! Rest the whole day.. :)
While writing this blog, i took a break, went out to the kitchen to grab something to drink.... saw my mum at the laundry area washing my niece's clothings.... And I asked my mum... why am i always seeing her washing my niece clothes????? Darn.... my sis-in-law has been treating my mum as maid or wat!!!! I was furious!!! She handwash her own clothes and not her baby's clothes??? Why must she leave everything to my mum to wash????? Geee.... my mum gotta do everything for my niece!!!! Babysit while my sis-in-law's not in (fine! that's fair enough! becoz she's working) and now at night gotta wash the baby's clothes!!! Darn.... my sis-in-law is behaving like a mother pig man!!! just create a life, play with her baby as if like a toy as and when she feels like it, buy all the baby stuffs. And the dirty jobs leave it to my mum to handle.... Darn... it's too much man!!! To all my girl friends..... Don't and never do that!!! i think we should help as much as we can....
After living with my sis-in-law for the past few years, I have learnt many things from her.... many things that she does, I m sure i will not do it.... I know what I am not suppose to do.... I m sure I can do alot better than sis-in-law. I shan't commend much about her, but I wasn't in good relationship with her.... (if u wanna know what happend refer to my previous blog that i wrote many months back!) But if u are lazy to refer, I can quote 1 previous incident about her briefly:
Last year one Saturday morning, she was still pregnant and my Dad was not around, he's hospitalised for a minior operation. FOR NO REASON, she was shouting outside my room and wanting me out of the house, because she wants my room for her baby. (Isn't a new born baby suppose to sleep with the parents for the first few years??) and on top of that, she scolded me BITCH! I was super furious and i was in my room wiping sadly.... From then, i avoid any communication with her to avoid any conflicts with her... Before this whole incident happened, I had no communication with her at all... and outa no where, she did all these!!! It's not a good feeling when someone scold me BITCH and wants me outa house.... I was so helpless, dad's not aorund to help me.... and my mum and brother just leave her alone to scold me.... I was really disappointed... but in the end, they told me that they have their tactics to handle her craziness!!! And with that i feel alot better! Everyday, I m living with fear with her.... i don't know when she's gonna erupt again like a volcano! I can't wait till Nov when Alvin and I starts our own family...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Have you ever loved??

Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for you're best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid.... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie...the thing we fear grows stronger.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart ... but if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or that all Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever...
Love, Laugh and Smile. Time is the best gift you'll ever receive, don't take it for granted. Tell everyone how much they mean to you, you may not get the chance tomorrow.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Chilling out with friends over the long weekend evenings...

Alvin and I spent our weekend evenings well with 2 of us friends... Dawn and Glenn...

On Saturday, Alvin and I, together with Dawn, we went to try and choose my wedding gowns at Harbourfront in the afternoon... and we went for KTV with Glenn in the evening and had Macs in the KTV room. :) Ok... nothing fantastic.... just sing and sing.... didn't have much time updating each other... becoz Dawn gotta wake up super early the next morning for Church service.... she left after we finish our singing session.... Glenn continued to stay with us for supper in this place full of roaches.... i was terrified the whole supper session with Glenn and Alvin... But we managed to chat alot. Cool... I can do 3 things at a time... Eat my food, chatting with friends and looking out for roaches near me. :) hee hee...

On Sunday, i met up with Alvin to shop around in Orchard Road!! Geee.... packed with domestic maids at one of the shopping centre that we went for lunch... Lucky Plaza!! In Singapore, Sundays is domestic maids' off day.... they usually will hang around Lucky Plaza together with their friends. Then we went to paragon.... phew... people there are alot better!!! haa haa!!

In the evening, after dinner, we meet up with Glenn and Dawn again!!! (ok, they are not couple, but to me, they look like a matching pair... but the rest's up to them!) hee hee... We went to THE WINR COMPANY at Evans Road to chill out! We ordered a bottle of 2005 Cabernet Sauvignon mixed with Merlot from South Africa (in house concortion, forgot the label) - it's easy to drink, fruity, i can say medium bodied, low in tannin, not very dry, basically, it's a young wine. Enjoying with the wine, we also ordered Cheese Platter with a cube of Blue Cheese as requested by Glenn (YUCKS!!!), sausage platter and drumlets! They are yummy and value for money! Thanks to Glenn for introducing us that beautiful place! it's an awesome place to chill out with friends and to date with your love ones!!! NICE!! I want to go back again!!! We chatted till 2 plus in the morning.... it was a great chat!!!